a Photographic Journey by Meryl

Help

Asking for help has always been terrifying for me. Growing up in the sixties and seventies in a tumultuous household, I quickly learned that the only face I should show the world was a happy, successful one. Therefore, I didn’t develop the confidence nor the trust in others to reach out when in need.

Through recovery, I’ve learned that help is usually waiting for me if I just reach out and ask the “right” one.
But who ‘s that? A friend, a relative, a professional, a neighbor, an acquantance or a spiritual source? That’s the tricky part. That’s where I’ve made mistakes that further damaged my confidence and alienated me from others.  In the past when I tried to ask, I often chose the wrong person, perhaps the one who had disappointed or wronged me in the first place; or someone who didn’t have the skills or emotional intelligence to help me face my particular problem.

Now when fear overwhelms me, I might not reach out right away while I’m in tears or perhaps in shock from a recent occurrence. But within a day or two when I’ve calmed down, I try to identify the true source of that fear, then I weigh my options. Who can I call that has the tools or resources to help me. And to whom can I safely expose my vulnerability?

These are the questions I ask myself and then I wait….

If I still don’t know, I can pray. Although I was raised with organized religion, praying doesn’t come naturally to me.  But now I’m working on it without all that organization. And sooner rather than later, help comes—-usually from the most unexpected place.  It’s quite miraculous…

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©Meryl Spiegel 2012–All rights reserved–No reproduction without permission

4 responses

  1. just saw this page Meryl…missed it earlier in the midst of my own issues – so sorry — very touching and sounds like you are on a good path of self-discovery here. Very happy the blogging has opened this door for you in a unique kind of way. Much Love to you my friend…xo

    July 13, 2012 at 6:17 pm

    • No worries…glad you found the page…seems like too much to put under the post although more readers might see it….but thought it was an important message to share….xoxm

      July 13, 2012 at 9:24 pm

      • yes – very much so. I used to do he same with links, but when I started incorporating more of the text in the post, did notice a dramatic increase in attention paid. Consider an experiment post perhaps where you do a narrative ~ may get more notice. This one really tied together the photo and poem in a very personal way. Thank you for sharing your heart !! xo

        July 13, 2012 at 9:40 pm

      • I will think about a way to do it for an upcoming post that is meaty if you know what I mean…:) Thanks, Robyn!

        July 14, 2012 at 8:28 am

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